Abandon yourself to God as you understand God. Admit your faults to Him and to your fellows. Clear away the wreckage of your past. Give freely of what you find and join us. We shall be with you in the Fellowship of the Spirit, and you will surely meet some of us as you trudge the Road of Happy Destiny. May God bless you and keep you – until then.
These words put a lump in my throat each time I read them. In the beginning it was because I felt, "Oh no! The teaching is over. Now I’m on my own. It will never be this new again." Today I feel deep affection for the A.A. pioneers when I read this passage, realizing that it sums up all of what I believe in, and strive for, and that – with God’s blessing – the teaching is never over, I’m never on my own, and every day is brand new.
Was I scared! Words can’t describe how much I feared going out into the world. My time was up at the Treatment Center! I would have to go out alone and afraid. But I was forgetting that God walked with me and I had turned my will over to him – with abandon. I also hadn’t counted on the power of AA.
After a lifetime of drinking and doing it my way – I was amazed and awestruck how I made it through the first day and then the second. That was two years plus ago. I’ll be a newbie for a long time, but what the heck – I’s already got the keys to the "kingdom" and I don’t plan to give them to anyone but God (HP) and AA.