Explaining the half yearly reporting database application
Twenty eighth April 2004, a red–letter day for me. Not only is it my ninth sobriety birthday, it is also a day on which I shall be presenting a database reporting application to representatives from the Ministry of Social Justice and Empowerment, Govt. of India, National Center for Drug Abuse Prevention and Regional Resource Training Centers. They have also entrusted me with the responsibility of developing an interactive national website. Imagine collecting data for the National Drug Abuse Monitoring System through a website developed by a recovering addict!
Isn’t it wonderful that I have the opportunity to redesign and work on the UNODC ROSA website.Recovery works, if you work for it!
Visiting the two friends who
contributed hugely to staying sober
What an exhilarating and eventful journey it has been. Finding joy in giving, instead of in snatching – what a transformation. I truly am grateful to everyone who made this possible.
It is pointless going into the war stories of the using days. I guess they are more or less the same for all of us recovering addicts. Blocked veins, stealing, lying, obsessed with only one thought – how to get the next dose, on the streets, no self–esteem, no values et al.
In Vienna at the feet of Johann Strauss (Stadt Park)
One thing I just cannot figure out is why did it take me seventeen years to take the steps needed to recover. I had been to rehabs and Narcotic Anonymous meetings and knew what I had to do to find recovery, but it took me a long time to get on the path. The 27th April 1995 evening is still vividly etched in my mind. I had gone to Bangalore, looking for a job. There I ran out of money, could not find stuff, was sick with pushing Fortwin and smoking pot. I used the last of my money to buy a bus ticket back to Pune. And as there was still time for the bus to depart, I went to a serene shady spot overlooking a lake at nearby Lalbaug.
It was there that I went through a flashback of my using life and wept inconsolably. That was when I truly went on my knees and surrendered to a Higher Power. Since that moment I have not had the urge to use. What a paradox – Victory in accepting defeat! There is so much truth in the N.A./A.A. philosophy
Trekking in Himachal Pradesh, a few kilometers from the Chinese border
Whenever I am feeling low or dejected, I remind myself that I have no reason to feel low, because the logical end to my using ways was – Death or Insanity or Institutionalization. Instead I have a chance to enjoy life at its fullest.
Thank you God! And heart felt thanks to all the people working to help people like me! What a joy it is to be able to travel and pursue meaningful interests. Recovery has made all this possible.